First of all, let me say that I was sorry to hear about your father. May his memory be a blessing. Now let’s talk about “I Am.” What was its genesis?
Thank you so much. I feel like I am working in the spirit of my dad. So, thank you. “I Am” came from a piece that I had done before—“Ink”—that premiered in 2017. It’s the idea of Black joy. I wanted to take that feeling and spirit and lean even more forward into it. A lot of times, I’ve created pieces where we see the grief, the sorrow and through the journey we see the joy. I wanted to do a work that starts out with joy and also talks about the future.
When we see the future, sometimes we go in fearing, because there's so much that we don't know. What does that look like if we move with joy? What does that look like when we claim who we are, and say, “I am,” and move through with confidence and community, and funk and soul and heart and music?
In the New York production of “I Am,” you danced a solo, but unfortunately, you won’t be performing in L.A. and I’m wondering why.
As time moved on, and I got older and started getting other opportunities, particularly in commercial theater, I started performing less. In 2020, I turned 40, and I felt like it was a moment where I had started mourning my dance career, that I was feeling really down and low. It was also during Covid, so, on top of not feeling at my best, I couldn’t do anything if I wanted to.
I have had a leadership coach since 2015, and they've all been Black females. The most recent one, Tanisha Christie, I was speaking to her about where I was at 40, and she asked me, or rather challenged me, to make a solo expressing whatever I wanted it to be. And I was procrastinating. And every session, she would ask, did you do it? And I would say, “No.”
Last year we were performing for Jacob's Pillow, and I didn't know what to talk about. Normally, for my evening-length works, I set the solo that I'm going to do in the work first. But because I was talking to her, and she said, “Well, you can always put the solo in “I Am.” And I said, “Okay, I'm not sure what that looks like, but I'll think about it.”
By this time, it had already been up, and I was looking at the sections, and was thinking, “Okay, what is missing? And I thought to myself, well, this piece is inspired by an episode, “I Am,” of [the HBO series] Lovecraft Country], and even though there are depictions of joy in the work, there's really no storyline in the dance that talks about that episode specifically.
So, some of the references are from that episode, and also my journey as a performer, a director, a dancer, the challenges that I've faced, the hardships and the idea of continuing to move forward in the spirit of joy. You can be serious about your work and joyful at the same time, sure. So, that's a very long response to what made me put the solo in the show, but Courtney Ross is dancing it in L.A.
The work fuses Afro-Caribbean, hip-hop, step and street dance. How would you describe your style?
I describe my style as Camille. I could say, ‘It’s inspired by tap and jazz and hip hop and ballet and modern dance and contemporary.’ But no one can take your name away, and so that's why I say it's Camille. And hopefully when people see it, they see Camille's way of using these dance styles and influences.
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