Gracia: What we responded to in your work was the honesty and when you said that the really big thing you learnt this season was about love. And how ‘You’ve got to love the audience, because if I don’t love the audience, it’s really hard to be generous and move on. And it is very intimate, because [you’re] quite exposed, and [the audience] are too, in a sense.”
Well, you see, I grew up in the bush, and it’s all gone. It used to feel endless. I always thought, “Oh, if it doesn’t work out dancing, I’ll just go bush.” I could always just get away from the pressure of it or the competition of it or the fear of failure. But you can’t now. This is it now. And that’s very interesting, isn’t it? This is it. There is nowhere to escape to. Wow! That’s a big responsibility. It’s about time.
I suppose that’s come back to performing, for me. It is to create that two-way space where people can come into it. So, therefore, I feel like I’m giving something to it.
Louise: What’s it like to dance in the ashes?
It’s amazing on the soles of the feet. I went down to West Cape near Cape Conran. We were going there daily, regularly, for a couple of months. And the thing that was so sad was one of the fires was coming down through the logging coups where it burns really fast, because it was regrowth. So, wind tunnels. Shorter trees with a lot of sap. It was coming down, and they were expecting it would come towards Bemm River. The Fire Chief lit a fire to protect the town, and there was an easterly wind, as there often is, and the easterly wind blew the fire towards Marlo. So they went out and put another fire in, to try to stop it. And the fire burnt through it because there was still an easterly wind. They did that three times. It burnt through the cabins at Cape Conway, through all the beautiful wetlands, stuff that had never been burnt, right down to the water’s edge. And it nearly got to Marlo when the wind changed. The whole sort of reality, the emotional feeling of being in there: it was so black. So hot. It was so hot. All the silver banksias were dead, and even the seedbed was burnt. There was no seed. It was so hot it had just incinerated the seedbed, so no recovery. It’s still all awful. It was powerful to be there. And my partner, Andrew Morrish, would come and sit the camera down and I’d come in and out and work. And he might move the camera but not very often. It was just sort of more like documenting it in a way. We weren’t trying to make anything of it. It was just a practice to go there. And Lisa would come and take photos.
Yeah, just this strong feeling I had in my feet. Of the powdery ash. Wow! And the blackness. It was there for days. I’d worked with Peter Fraser, when we started the DIRt stuff, and that was a deliberate burn that went wrong—after a farmer who wanted to clean up and get rid of some bandicoot habitat—and it burnt through some Trust for Nature places that were protected. We took an audience in there, after we’d worked there for a while. We always kept to the same path so we didn’t stand on anything, and Andrew put some black string up, so the audience could follow it to some black chairs where they could sit and watch me and Peter work. It was really touching, I think, for people. And so that was the first performance, I think, we did outside. About thirty people, locals, came. It was really interesting going out there to that place.
Gracia: That must have really helped people process what had happened and what they were feeling.
Yeah, it did. Just to sit there, and be in it, you know. Silent. I remember there was a Lace Monitor that came through. It was black; it had changed colour; and it just went through. It was incredible.
It does something else. Because the thing about dancing is it keeps creating itself. It’s a restorative thing, not an ending. Even in that difficulty and that tragedy, it sort of gives life again. There’s life in the body, and I think it does something to other bodies. I think that’s why the body has a role. Maybe that’s one of its roles; it keeps regenerating. So, that’s a good thing. Even if it is not fixing the place, there’s something about regenerating.
Louise: Yes, because everything is completely broken at the moment, so the only solution we have is to make things anew, in a beautiful way that’s, like, actually the solution. We can change our ways. We can reciprocate with nature and, in doing so, we might have healthy topsoil again and clean air again. Biodiversity! What have we got to lose?!
And clean waterways. Clean rivers.
A safe future, where we are not fighting over a scarcity of resources. We might be able to live lives that are much more meaningful.
Yeah, well we’ll have to. It’s like the Industrial Revolution and things had to change because there was disease and people didn’t have clean water to drink and they were living in abject poverty. It’s sort of like that, isn’t it? In a different picture.
Yeah, we’re “we’ve just used it all up” and we are in crisis mode.
As foster cares for wildlife (either orphaned young or injured adults), specifically grey-headed flying foxes, who, as you are aware, are listed as Vulnerable, have you ever been inspired (directly or indirectly) by the incredible movement range of animals? From nocturnal vision to seeing eucalypts in flower at night and coming in to land? Or what the view looks like from up there? Or how the wind feels on every nerve ending in their wing membrane? How colony animals communicate to one another?
Rosalind: Oh, that’s very interesting. There were a few performances in the gallery in East Gippsland where I was working on this piece called “Fold” for a while. Which I kind of felt was like a little pup.
[to which Rosalind leapt up and unfolded her right arm at speed.]
Gracia: Yeah! When they quickly unfurl!
Louise: That thumb that comes out of nowhere.
Gracia: And that confidence they have in their body, and the fluidity. And the ratchet-like locking mechanism which makes it as comfortable for a flying fox to hold on to a tree branch and an effort to let go (the opposite of our human grip, where to hold on takes effort and to let go is our relaxed state).
Everything is just so efficient in animals. They’re amazing to watch. Sometimes I’ll just sit there quietly and a mob of kangaroos will come up. I’ll just watch them, and they don’t waste any energy. They’re just beautiful. I love watching animals in their own environment when they aren’t aware that they’re being watched.
Hope, to me, is a radical engagement with uncertainty, and it requires flying fox flexibility. Doing something for nature, no matter how small, and not being passive. To paraphrase the author Rebecca Solnit, hope is that the ending is not written yet, that it is not too late. Is this, too, how you feel? What gives you hope?
Yeah, I feel that. You’ve got to have hope. And joy; I’d call it joy. Because otherwise it’s just all downhill. I think it’s a responsibility, joy. And the sensation! We’re so fucking lucky to be alive.
The other thing I find is that there have been a lot of young dancers coming to this show and I find that really interesting and I feel generous towards them, because, you know, it’s very hard to find your way. And I give them the support. So that feels part of it, too. And when people feel supported, they do better things. Maybe they take more care. Take more responsibility.
But yeah, this uncertainty thing. It is all moving, all the time. It is the same with performing and dancing. You can’t fix it. It’s moving. You just have to stay attentive, aware, and awake.
Yeah, that sentence is beautiful.
It gives you the energy to do positive stuff. While you are here. Which is a short time.
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